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The Astonishing Color of After


“Emily X.R. Pan’s brilliantly crafted, harrowing first novel portrays the vast spectrum of love and grief with heart-wrenching beauty and candor. This is a very special book.”―John Green, bestselling author of The Fault in Our Stars and Turtles All the Way Down

“Magic and mourning, love and loss, secrets kept and secrets revealed all illuminate Emily X.R. Pan’s inventive and heart-wrenching debut.”―Gayle Forman, bestselling author of If I Stay and I Was Here

“Emily X.R. Pan utterly transported me to a world reminiscent of Isabel Allende. Haunting at every turn, this is a glorious debut.”― Renée Ahdieh, bestselling author of The Wrath and the Dawn

“This beautiful, magical journey through grief made my heart take flight.”― Holly Black, bestselling author of The Cruel Prince and The Darkest Part of the Forest

“In this dazzling debut, author Emily X.R. Pan has created a spellbinding narrative about love, family, and what it means to grieve.”―Bustle

“Dynamic, brave Leigh emerges vividly in Pan’s deft hand, and her enthralling journey through her grief glows with stunning warmth, strength, and resilience.”―Booklist, starred review

“Pan’s emotionally charged debut is a compelling exploration of grief and the insidiousness of depression.”―Publishers Weekly, starred review


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